Let me get straight to the point: Everything seems to be falling into place. I don’t think I’ve felt like this before.
Concerning my mom’s passing – on Saturday will mark 4 months since. I’m never going to forget. I already know that. I’ll remember her and take time to remember her for the rest of my life and knowing that it’s okay to honor her memory, to remember her, to think of her makes things okay. For the first couple of months I was in a bad place, but I’m doing a lot better. I think I, personally, and the rest of my family are gradually moving on, albeit slowly, but moving forward.
I’m returning to California for my last term in the training and I’m excited and nervous for a variety of reasons. I don’t know what to expect but I have a good feeling I’ll be free to enjoy the Lord, way more than I ever have before. Much weight has been lifted off my being, and I don’t know how to handle that… but it’s good.
In other news, I don’t know what I’ll do next after I graduate in December.. I would like to return to school and get my Master’s degree in Child Life. I’ve been searching for schools, and here’s the funny part – – I’m not burdened at present to attend the Boston extension myself, but the school I want to attend is in Boston, so either way, the Lord may end up leading me there. I have a direction to go in…especially after having some contact with the school. That’s where the above picture comes in…
In one of my classes in undergrad – it was a professional course, my professor gave our class this sheet of paper with a safety pin. He told a story with it, but I don’t remember the story. I just remember that it meant something enough that I wouldn’t throw this strip away. I couldn’t understand the four words at the time, but now I do. I must have a purpose – and that, I do have. Once you have a purpose, you have your passion – – maybe they go together? I have both, but the planning and preparation part I’ve never been good at, but I’m starting to see that now. Planning to go back to school and making the preparations. It seems like it could possibly workout for me to return to school, and I think if the Lord keeps opening the way, then He’s okay with that. No doubt He’ll gain the hundreds and thousands of conversations He needs from me in the process.
Yes, I’m definitely looking forward to a new beginning, a stretching forward to the things which are before (Phil. 3) and becoming much more closer to the One I’ve been joined to (1 Cor. 6:17).